I've been a very bad girl...

I know, I know... I just posted. But here's the thing- it's Saturday morning and I'm trapped at work. I've been open for one whole hour and I've only had 3 customers come in. See? I'm bored. Plus, I like to write (and talk). I talk when I don't even have anything to say. I guess I do the same with writing. And there's no better place to dump my rampant thoughts than on my own blog. So here we go. 

I start up my final year of Journalism school on Tuesday. I am less than enthused, as I find balancing work, social life, and school to be very stressful. Throw a chronic illness into the mix and the whole thing can get a bit overwhelming. There is however one thing that I love about back to school.... And that's back to school shopping. I just love to shop, period. Funny habit for a girl with no money. 

The other day I discovered the Tide Store (www.tidestore.com) and they have some seriously cute clothes. And I was in bed and on some pain killers so I was feeling a bit whoopsie. And I may have bought some things. I'm a bad girl. Here's what I got! 

I got the white one 

My only concern with my purchase is that the models they have wearing these clothes are these tiny skinny little Asian women. I am not a tiny little Asian woman. I mean I have a tiny little waist and bony ribs, but I have a butt, hips, and thunder things. So naturally I'm seriously concerned that the jeans won't fit. 

I'll be sure to post when my clothes come in and give you all a review on the Tide Store. In the meantime, maybe cross your fingers for me and pray that my jeans will fit over my ass. 

Until next time (likely later today if business keeps on being this slow...) 

-Captain Lakie 

The Little Hamster that Could

Good morning beautiful people. How is everyone today? 

I'm in a rather chipper mood for one reason today-  my beloved Sunny, who has been very sick over the past week and a half, is finally starting to get better. Hoorah! Sunny is my wonderful gold and white long haired Syrian hamster, and he's my "special needs" baby. Sunny has chronic lung problems and he catches colds and respiratory infections rather easily. 

I put Sunny on two daily doses of Chloramphenicol, which has done wonders for him. Along with his antibiotics, Sunny has been fed nutrient rich foods like egg, yogurt, spray millet, kale, and blueberries. 

I'm so thankful for my previous job experience as a Kennel Technician. My job taught me how to keep cool and calm and treat sick and injured animals professionally. 

While he still has some more recovering to do, Sunny is pulling through like an absolute champion. I can't wait till he's full recovered and we can have our usual evening snuggles.

So, I would like to dedicate this post to our little Sun Buns, the little hamster that could! 

Love all animals

-Captain Lakie 

Welcome home, Ponies!

Good evening beautiful people! How is everyone?

I'm feeling a whole bunch of things right now... Like, I've felt either ends of the spectrum. I had a total of 3 mental breakdowns today, but I also had an amazing and memorable evening. Allow me to elaborate.

My first and dearly beloved hamster, Sunny, is very sick right now. Sunny is my white and golden long haired Syrian hamster. I bought Sunny in 2013 from the pet store I used to work at.

Look at that cute face!!!

Since bringing him home, I've learned that Sunny has chronic respiratory problems, likely athsma. My poor little guy had a weakened immune system and catches my colds. He's sensitive to temperature and humidity, and his athsma flares up when it gets dusty. I love my little "Sun-Buns", and I've been absolutely heart broken since he got sick again. It kills me to see him struggling to breathe and sneezing all the time. He's lost so much weight and his fur is all rumpled. I've been giving him antibiotics, and hand feeding him nutrient and calorie rich foods, like egg, yogurt, spray millet, and lettuce. His condition seems to improve, then it quickly declines and I fear for his little life. Then he'll pick back up again and I feel optimistic. I really hope that he'll pull through. I don't want to have to make the decision to put him down. It's such a heartbreaking thought and it's had me emotionally wrecked all day. 

I had three breakdowns, the first occurring on my way to work. While on the phone with my boyfriend, I just burst into tears and bawled about how much I didn't want to go to work. When I finally did get to work and I saw how much stock came in, I burst into tears again. I looked at the towers of 30LB dog food bags and wept like a child. Later that afternoon Sunny was on my mind and I was scared that he had passed away while I was at work, then what I would have to do if he didn't get better. So I cried and then my nose bled. 

I did get to leave work early, which was fantastic. I stopped by  michael's arts and crafts store, to try to cheer myself up. I love making scrapbooks, and I have this unhealthy addiction to scrapbooking stickers. So I spent some time picking out stickers and I started to feel a bit better. In the meantime, I discovered that my favourite scrapbooks are on buy one get one. I wanted to get the lilac coloured one and a black one soooo bad. But I didn't really want to pay $30 bucks. The struggle. Next I went to homesense and bought a mirror for my makeup vanity. I also sent to Pet Smart and bought this adorable little fleece blankie for Sunny. It's baby blue and so comfy. I figured it would be a cozy little blankie to wrap him up in while he gets his antibiotics and hand feedings. 

Christ almighty! Castle Lakie has the worst internet ever. Like it takes a solid five minutes to send a tweet. I'm trying to look up funny pictures but I can just go ahead and forget about that idea because it'll take a hundred damn years to load. 

Sorry guys, if this post makes no sense whatsoever I apologize. This is me right now: 

I'm in no state to be blogging. OH WELL. 

The highlight of my day was finally moving the horses so Castle Lakie. Scooter and Bella are happy as clams and I can't freakin believe that my horse is in my yard! This is a dream come true! 

To celebrate, I drank a glass of wine while sitting on my horse, Scooter. Then I rode Bella, my mom's horse. What a great evening! 

My pain has been so bad lately. Last night it woke me up and kept me up. The pain was so much I couldn't get up to get some water to take my pills with. So I suffered until I managed to nod off again. Lifting all that heavy dog food at work really isn't doing me any good.  So that brings me to where I am now... In bed, high as a kite, blogging. 

As of right now, the way I'm seeing things, Sunny is alive, Scooter is in my yard, so life is good.

Good night Everyone! 

-CaptainLakie 

It's vacation time!

Hello, Liebens! How is everyone doing today?

I'm stressin. Why? I leave for vacation tomorrow at 4:45 am. Vacation is awesome and fantastic and I so desperately want to go on one. But here's the thing, I'm still very much in the process of moving and to make a long story short, I MUST get all my remaining items out of my old house before I leave tomorrow. Oh, and I work till 9:00 tonight. Guess whose pulling an all nighter? That's right, this girl. Thank god for NOS, Rockstar, and all those other energy beverages I'm so definitely not allowed to have on my diet. 

On top of that, I'm still on my bloody period (ha-ha see what I did there? Ba-dum-pshhh). I'm a freaking beast when I'm on my period. Like she-wolf but not the sexy Shakira type. More like the lycanthrope I will eat you alive kind of she-wolf. Because my insides are covered in endometriosis, when I get my period I get a lot of swelling and bleeding going on inside my pelvis. CAN YOU SEE WHY IM SO CRANKY? Ahem. Sorry. But really, I am so unimpressed that I'll be on a 12 hour road trip tomorrow with my fucking period. WAY TO GO MOTHER NATURE. Bitch. 

This morning, my cramps woke me up. 

This is me.

And I'm still hurting. So I'm at work laying behind the counter hating just about everything. I'm rampantly emotional while on my period so I'm swallowing back a lump in my throat. I'm at work and I'm going to burst into tears at any moment. Just you wait and see. Some tough guy with tattoos will walk in and out of no where I'm going to start hysterically bawling and he'll just stare at me, though maybe if I'm lucky he'll awkwardly pat my back. 

I feel drained and sad and sore and I don't even know what to do with myself. 

On a completely different note, I am absolutely excited for the new Dr Who season!!! Good God when I heard the TARDIS engines on the radio today I came in my fucking pants. 

I had a wee bit of a crush on David Tennant as Dr #10, and Matt Smith only just started to grow on me. The new guy is so very not my type, but I'm still so stoked for ALL NEW DR. WHO OMG. 

Can't wait. 

Hope you guys have a better day than me.

~Captain Lakie, the Silly Mallard

Diets are hard.

Hello, beautiful people! How is everyone today? 

I happen to be pretty goddamn cranky. Why? Why you ask? Let me tell you why...

I'm on a diet.

And apparently I'm not handling it too well. See, I'm on a diet because my chronic pain associated with endometriosis has gotten to the point where I'm really just perpetually sore and miserable. I figured that trying out the Endometriosis Diet would do me some good. So far all it's done for me is helped with digestion and made me EVER SO CRANKY. I want carbs, man! So many carbs. Omg carbs. I love carbs. 

I seriously wish this was me right now.

But no. Instead I'm at work going a little bit crazy with a growling stomach. 

See, since I've been on this diet (about a week or two now???...) I haven't noticed a reduction in pain. On the contrary... I've noticed an increase in pain. Realistically though, I carry around 28 pound bags of dog food at work and I've been moving houses, and endometriosis doesn't like lifting and physical activity, so perhaps that's why my pain has flared. I really wish I could see some progress with this diet. I've lost the tiniest bit of weight (mostly from my boobs. Fantastic). And I'm hungry. Like all the goddamn time. 

My Beloved is supportive and wonderful so he is also on this diet with me. While he doesn't have any endometriosis in his pelvis (thank god......) this diet could do him some good too. Problem is, healthy eating is expensive and doesn't leave you feeling as satisfied as, say, a steak dinner would. Ugh. I really can't express how thankful I am for my boyfriend to be on this diet with me. The support is amazing. He helps me through my moments of weakness and tears me away from the fried chicken sandwiches. Oh god. Fried chicken. Sandwiches. FOOD. I want it all. 

Hope you all have a great day and aren't as hungry as I am. 

~Captain Lakie, the Silly Mallard. 

Moving in

Good evening, Liebens!

So much exciting news! First and foremost to report is my current living situation. See, for the first time in over 10 years, I've moved! And goodness does it ever feel strange... This new room of mine is gorgeous- it's like a little studio apartment. Sleeping in a new room, a new house, makes me feel as though I'm in a vacation house or something. But seeing my furniture, sleeping in my bed... It's so odd. Pardon me, the last time I moved it was 12 years ago and I was 10 years old. I barely remember the experience. 

I love my new room, and I've been having a blast getting it set up this weekend. There are many things that I love about the new house and my new room. I am particularly excited about my makeshift makeup vanity. 

Ain't it pretty?

My new place makes me feel like royalty so from now on, I shall refer to my house as 
Castle Lakie. 

What I am most excited about is embarking upon Farmerhood. Err... I believe that's the correct term? This new house we've moved into is on an acreage, complete with horse pasture and *drumroll* a barn! This means I can keep my loyal steed, Scooter, in my own goddamn backyard. 

Scooter is my best friend, truly the love of my life. So having him so close by (AKA 10 feet out my back door) it's.... well frankly it's fucking amazing. I CANNOT WAIT to trailer my horses over (this weekend perhaps). I can only begin to imagine the kind of shenanigans we will get up to...

We're the shenanigans type.

Unfortunately, I've been rendered just about useless thanks to my diseased pelvis. My endometriosis has been flaring up really bad these past couple days. Between hauling around 30lb bags of dog food at work and moving boxes around my new house, my pain has been flaring so bad lately and- surprise- I've been bleeding rather heavily. My pain reached a lovely level 9 yesterday, which has made enthusiastically unpacking boxes and building cheap ass Target furniture rather hard. 

For those of you who don't know, a 9 on the pain scale is a big fucking deal. I found this hilarious endometriosis pain chart on the twitter and I think it's worth sharing:

The last time my pain had been this bad, I reached a 10 and fainted and vomited in the back room of my old job at a different pet store. After a 10 hour shift My Beloved took me to the hospital where I was put on a morphine drip. (I was fired from that job the next day which  almost makes that the worst 48 hours in the history of my existence).  

Anyways...

I still don't have internet (I drafted this post on Monday, August 11th) but when I get connected, I promise to share pictures of Castle Lakie. 

Until then, take care and thanks for reading! 

~Captain Lakie