I'm being stretched too far and I'm too incompetent to keep up with my schedule. I feel like I'm drowning. I've had enough of school. I haven't had a break from school ever. I'm supposed to graduate in the Spring but I desperately want to drop out because I can't keep up. The workload is heavy, and that combined with my job and trying to continue day to day while my body is trying to kill me... I just can't do it.
This morning I stood in front of the bathroom mirror and my cramps were so bad and I was bleeding so heavily and the pain was nagging and nagging and all I could think is how badly I wanted to go back to bed. I had only been out of bed for 10 minutes. So I swallowed some pain killers and away we go! Walking around campus is fun when you're bleeding so heavily that you can physically feel it, and the cramps are so bad your face looks a little bit odd. I'm bloated like a whale and I don't have much mobility in my left leg again.
In October my thoughts on school and my health were a bit like...
But then things started going down hill...
I want to quit.
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